It’s my birthday today!
Another year of my life
But I was 21 just yesterday
And I’m not even ready to be 22 yet!
Don’t even feel like a 22 year old
Or match the image I’d harboured as a kid
Of what I will be when I am….
But then again I was always unrealistic
I little vague in what I wanted
The image I had fuzzy at the edges
Fighting oblivion as a girl’s dreams
Met the reality life brings
Not all bleak and not all dark
Life’s just been quite a handful
And while I’m glad of the slips along the way
I only wish I’d learnt from them
Instead of another year- repeating mistakes
I’d sworn never to repeat again
A bumpy ride
That’s what they say
Clichéd at worst, but it rings so true
The speed breaks along the way
Leading to a sunny highway
The warmth of love
The joy in friends
And even their crossing over the lines with apparent ease
The knowledge that enemies brought
Yesterday’s friends, today no more
It’s been a life
I’d never be willing to trade
But then why do I feel cheated?
The image I once created for myself
Stolen away for no-good reason
The woman I wanted to be
Rendered only a distant “reality”!
